Utena Tenjou

People grow up, don't they? Boys become men. Girls become women. Friends grow apart.

Sometimes I wonder if I really am doing any good at all. I might like my best friend's company but am I really a good influence on her? If my actions led her to hurt another... That's something I couldn't handle. Wakaba, only if I could talk to you about this but I can't. I can't let her know about the duels--about the community. She's a normal person, the most normal I've ever met. Even if she can be silly, Wakaba has been my closest friend for years.

And still I can't help but think about what the community showed. Sure, something might have done something to her but... What would I have done for her to turn to a person who's caused her nothing but grief? To swear to become a murderer for him?

Some things I don't understand.

You know... I think I forgot my best friend's birthday. I think she forgot it, too. Normally she would have done something if I had. Like the one time I forgot I had promised to eat lunch with her. She wouldn't let me hear the end of it for weeks!

Maybe I should something buy for Wakaba. Maybe invite her to the dorm for dinner with Himemiya, Kamina-san, and me. Funny. I've always had friends but Wakaba's been my closest. Why would I forget her birthday? I hope she doesn't think I've been neglecting her... She was really shocked when we didn't share a room this term or even were in the same dorm.

One of the worst things about this dueling thing is I can't spend half the time I used to with Wakaba. If I were her, I'd be jealous but Wakaba's so normal that I can't just explain everything to her.